Day 12: Touch My Hand

Last night I dreamed someone touched my hand.  I was sitting on a grassy hill with three schoolmates.  One of the young men touched my hand!  In the dream, I felt shocked, scared of the germs and the boldness he possessed to touch another person’s hand.  What is my subconscious chewing on?  Is this the beginning of a post-pandemic world? Although I am living with a family member, working from home, video conferencing three times weekly, and go on an occasional errand for work, am I beginning to miss human contact…while fearing it at the same time?  Even without a pandemic to remind us, humans require human contact of all types, it can’t be denied.

Hopefully, we will continue to practice safe social interaction, including hugs.  Research shows that hugging may help reduce stress and lower your risk of anxiety, depression, and illness. Consider what a simple hug can do: Helps you feel connected. Hugging helps connect you to others and can reduce feelings of loneliness and isolation

1) an observed joy- breakfast in bed felt especially fabulous this morning.

2) a real concern- Wondering if I should take the virus test.  I have no symptoms but I am an essential worker who occasionally needs to talk to the public.  I will ask my doctor.

3) a personal challenge- tonight, put on a trashy movie and go through your file cabinet!

4) one personal success (no matter how small)- This morning the kitchen was clean.  Changed my whole mood.

5) a random thought (no matter how silly)- This made me laugh this morning, read in the Whatcom Breaking News FB page:

1500 block Birchwood Ave. – Suspicious Person
Male riding a bicycle, playing demonic music from a boombox, waving around something that looks like a firearm, wearing a mask

Here is my mood meme for the day-

Day 7: Cherry Blossoms

It is Day 7 of the Stay Home, Stay Healthy mandate in Washington State. As of the writing of this journal, there is 3166 dead from the virus in our country, 211 happened in Washington, which puts us second behind New Yorks 1342.

The cherry, apple and plum blossoms are blooming right now!  They still sing and shine in their bright pink & white glory despite a smaller audience.  Nature doesn’t need applause or recognition to perform, it’s always magnificent.


Me: The cure is worst than the cause! Millions of people are losing their homes, their small businesses and jobs, many are starving, domestic violence rate is increasing, people whose homes are NOT safe are now locked into them– to save what?– 100-200,000 people from dying of a virus?  This whole “shelter in place” crap is a scam, a mass hypnosis event, designed to kill off more poor people!

Also me, in the grocery store: Hey! Keep your snotty nose 6 feet away, buddy!


1) an observed joy- One of my tenants asked for call today.  I thought maybe she needed something fixed.  However, she just wanted to talk.  We talked for about a half-hour. It was nice.

My second joy- I went to my office today to bring in the mail.  My Christmas cactus, gifted to me in December, was wilting. I forgot all about it this month! I gave it some water and took it home.  I’m glad it was still alive.

2) a real concern- I learn today that the main hospital in Whatcom County has only 253 beds. (WTH right?)  Also, the snobby directors of the hospital fired a whistleblower (see below). The +900 strong local nurses union is demanding his return.

My second concern is I shopped at a smaller, more expensive grocery store for a week’s worth of meals today, paid an extra $80 above what I normally would for food for the sake of smaller exposure to crowds. I can’t afford to do this again in 8 days.

3) a personal challenge- I’m in search of liquid bleach for one of the tenants.  I did not go for a walk around the neighborhood today, but I did walk some obscure places seeking bleach, The Dollar Store and Home Depo hardware.  I did not find bleach. The tenant has a high-risk immune system and only uses vinegar/water or bleach/water to clean her home due to allergies to artificial smells, and asked me to help them find some.

4) one personal success (no matter how small)-  Tonight I ate leftovers and rearranged the pantry to make space for a soup shelf.

5) a random thought (no matter how silly)- I think I would look good in braids.  Two long braids.

 

BELLINGHAM – An emergency room physician who publicly decried what he called a lack of protective measures against the novel coronavirus at his workplace, PeaceHealth St. Joseph Medical Center, has been fired.

Ming Lin, who has worked at the hospital for 17 years and became a local cause célèbre for his pleas for more safety equipment and more urgent measures to protect staff, was informed of his termination as he was preparing for a shift at the hospital Friday afternoon, he said.

“I got a message that said, ‘Your shift has been covered,’” Lin told The Seattle Times. He phoned his supervisor and was told, “You’ve been terminated.” Lin said he was told he would be contacted by human resources staff from his employer, TeamHealth, a national firm that contracts with PeaceHealth’s emergency department.

Hospital administrators this week announced a series of protective measures, such as temperature screening of staff entering the building, plans to enhance separation of staff from infected patients, and the availability of tents to conduct outside screening if deemed necessary.

…Lin and other hospital staff noted that most or all of these measures came after Lin’s treatises prompted a community outcry. Meanwhile, Lin maintains the measures fail to meet standards set by other regional hospitals and even smaller health care facilities.

PeaceHealth St. Joseph is the only emergency facility for some 250,000 people in the state’s northwest corner.

https://www.seattletimes.com/seattle-news/health/er-doctor-who-criticized-bellingham-hospitals-coronavirus-protections-has-been-fired/

Day 5: Miscounted Stock of TP

The Daily Dose of Internet is one of my favorite chill channels.  Hope you enjoy it as much as I do.  It is difficult to NOT watch too much TV during the lockdown.  As a lover of zombie movies, I noticed there are MORE zombie and epidemic movies lined up in my Hulu and Netflix this month.  One of my favorites is “Kingdom” from South Korea.  Just like the way they reacted to the coronavirus of today, the South Koreans in the show systematically wreck those zombies UP!

Edit: toilet paper roll count is 27.

1) an observed joy- Yesterday I received an inquiry from the Opportunity Council and the local food bank if any of our families would like to have a box of food from the food bank delivered to their homes. YES! Two of my moms cried tears of relief over the phone when I shared the news with them.  (I’m crying again thinking about it.) It is never a good time to be poor, more so during a lockdown. The trauma level double folds.

2) a real concern- I am concerned about my case families. They all have kids, little to no income. Searching for jobs during a pandemic is discouraging, to say the least. Bellingham is a mix of have and have-nots like most American cities.  However, in my 52 years, I’ve lived in 8 cities, and Bellingham is one of the most giving communities I’ve had the pleasure to live in.   Regardless, every day of this lockdown the vice grip twists down on our nation’s lower and struggling working-class tighter and tighter.  I will continue to search for opportunities for the families during this time.

3) a personal challenge-  Once again my brain is not in full pandemic mode.  At the grocery store the other day, I stopped in the aisle before the checkout lanes, thinking I forgot something.  While I was in my own head, my peripheral vision noticed a wide-eyed woman standing, staring at me.  It took me a second to figure out why.  I was standing in the middle of a space, with less than 6 feet on either side for her to get by me.  She patiently stood there waiting for me to wake up and move to the right to let her pass.  Thank you lady for your patience.

4) one personal success (no matter how small)- I read for an hour, prayed for 20 minutes and meditated for ten minutes.

5) a random thought (no matter how silly)- The community board appears to have an increase of “found” pets.  Are people kicking their pets out due to the costs to feed them?

Here is one of my favorite photos. Be safe. Be healthy. Be patient.  Be well. -spl